When I was new to student affairs, one characteristic that my colleagues and I had in common was our background as student activists. With such a background, we understood the impatience of our students who wanted social change now and not later. As students learn the history of this nation and the history of the world, thinking critically about what they are learning often leads them to take actions in efforts to make a positive difference.
As I moved through the career ladder in student affairs, I kept thinking about the connection between student activists and student affairs professionals. At one point, I became inspired and excited about the idea of writing a book on student affairs and social change.
It was on Saturday, December 18, 1999, near the end of a five-hour beautiful dinner and conversation. L., our host, had “pulled out all the stops for J., K. and me,” Standing in the foyer of L’s home at the bottom of the stairs preparing to say our goodbyes, I was thinking about the year 2000 that promised a new and significant decade.
Suddenly, I asked everyone what they wished for in the coming year. All of us responded without hesitation:
- J. wanted to have the book she was writing published and have Oprah love it.
- K., who had lost a loved one and feared for the health of her spouse, wanted good health for her family.
- L. wanted to win the lottery in order to establish a fun house for children and adults.
- I wanted to write a book about the pivotal role of student affairs and social movements initiated and fueled by student activists.
My response to this impromptu question was the first time I had articulated this idea. The idea had not surfaced so clearly before this moment.
Several days later, on Christmas Day, I was still thinking about the book that I had said I wanted to write. I was inspired.
On December 29, I wrote in my journal that I could write the book within a year despite all my other responsibilities. In my self-talk, I noted:
There is nothing to stop me but myself. Perhaps this book will be the doorway for future writing which could be my purpose. I want to make a selfless contribution to posterity in my lifetime. Maybe writing this book is my light that I must let shine.
Immediately after the holidays, I talked with respected colleagues who were authors of books related to higher education and student affairs about my idea. During each successive conversation, it became obvious to me that there was no support for the idea of the book or for my writing it.
Following these conversations, the energy and inspiration began to dissipate. I wrote a list of what I feared if I wrote the book and what I wanted to happen if I wrote the book.
In my next blog, I will share what happened…